To Botox or Not to Botox....

So, here I am again. Once again saying that I will not give botox to Hunter ever again. I'm wide awake at 1 AM worrying about the effects it will have on him, both short and long term. I reach for the one thing that I shouldn't. It is the one thing that, since the day of his birth, the doctor's and nurses warned me about. Yes, I'm talking about Google and all the horror stories that exist of medical treatments that go wrong. Google is abundant with stories of botox that has gone wrong in children with spastic diplegia (cerebral palsy). So, I sit here and pray. I pray that the next couple weeks will only provide Hunter with relief from his spasticity. I pray that it does not get in his blood stream. I pray that the treatment was successful. Do I do this again? Every thing is telling me not too. Yet, I feel somewhat pressured by his therapists and doctors to keep doing it. But, it is a toxin that I'm putting in my poor baby's body. It makes no sense. The treatment has been done. I can't take it back now. He will be due for his next injection in six months. I will be seriously contemplating this procedure for the future. I will be weighing the risks and benefits and approach this issue again in a couple months.